shagged from gymming.

finally, i just successfully applied for relief-teaching..zzz..even b4 leo was enlisted, i'd alrd tried applying for it..watever the prob, heck la..hmm..seriously can't get a proper admin job at this moment..the economy is really damn bad..zzz..if not, it cud be tt i'm too ugly..watever..zzz..haix..really getting very annoyed of being unemployed alrd..the feeling of having an empty wallet is terrible..having to rely on leo for my dates with him is also making me feel useless and weak..he always insists tt it's ok it's ok, but it's absolutely not ok for me..haix..how i wish i'm from an ultra rich family..sigh..i vow to break out of this poverty cycle!

this morning i just went back ac to gym with yip..ran 3.2km and did 5sets times 12 of the abs machine..hopefully my tummy goes away real soon..i really wonder how yip has the self-discipline to travel all the way back to school to gym like 3-4 times a week..admire his tenacity these several weeks..xD..will look up to him n ask him motivate me!!haha..went astons@je after gyming..the chargrill chicken and butter baked potato are damn nice man..always so tempting..leo was asking wat's the point of gyming in the morning when i have a heavy lunch after gyming..lol..watever it is, i just feel accomplished and enjoy my meal b4 i start working full time next year..

went ridgewood to play mahjong with weicheng, raymond and chunyi..started the mahjong games at 2pm after my tuition with cheepeng and chianyee..played 3 games until 11.30..won abt 4bucks overall in 3 games..lost like mad for the first 2 games..weicheng was bloody on fire la..while he kept winning, the 3 of us were constantly reminding him to watch for cars whenever he crosses the road..i always have this belief, good luck is always exchanged for bad karma..i experience it all the time..chunyi was super unlucky ytd..he was the only one who lost to the rest of us..he was rather laid back at first in the first game but became more aware tt he needed to play seriously after losing every single game in the earlier part of the session..raymond is another funny guy..leo kept telling me tt raymond's a nice guy..din't expect this nice guy to be almost as 'tall' as me tho..lol!hope he doesn't come across my blog anytime..xP..altho it was the first time i met and played mahjong with these 2 guys, we got along quite well and could joke and tease one another as if we've known everyone for some tym..haha..i'm feeling more and more manly..really shouldn't always mix with guys so often..zzz..

hmm..can't wait for tmr to come..shifted my tuition to sunday morning so as to be able to fetch leo at pasir ris tmr again..it's the last day of 2008..which means my 19th birthday is coming real soon..haix..every year i've been dreading this day..just very reluctant to lift the increasingly heavy responsibility tt i have resting on my shoulders..sigh..

on the other hand, after much tots, by right.....

i should learn to accept and face challenges of reality if i wanna grow stronger..mentally and spiritually..dreading birthdays every year is not the way to be alrd..this can't go on..seriously..it's time to change for a better attitude and mentality..i'm gng to be an adult in about 2-3 years..tt's really fast..zzz..

wat's this..it's self-psyco-ing..lol..

yea..must keep reminding myself to adopt a stronger n better attitude in facing watever tt comes in the future..hmm..no matter wat, i'm sure life for me will never hit the lowest again..i'm now blessed with an angel..who's serving ns currently..has a super round and nice to touch botakhead..equipped with 'wings' and extremely kiss-able lips..mushy mushy!..xDD..being mushy is fun..love you forever laogong..

MWACKX!!

gonna take a nap now...

tmr will be a better day..