pissed..

was damn angry with and hurt by someone today..
shan't mention wat and who..
realised how bitchy i really can be..
i know i suck and my anger can be really scary..
i'm so afraid of myself sometimes..

i just finished almost 2 chapters of psych today..
as in 2 chapters in the core concept psych txtbk..
damn tired now..by right, i shld be studying now too..
sianx..really no life alrd sia..zzz...

anyway these few days had been quite eventful..
(i noe i just contradicted myself,
but i'm refering to 2 different but closely-related things..)

watched "the proposal" with leo during his wed nightsout..
the movie was alrights la..
not as good as what i expected though..
yeap and ending suck!
anw we were late for the movie, cuz was having macs for dnr..
but i really enjoyed spending that wed night with leo..

thu was kinda disastrous due to the hectic timetable and tuition with my 3 kids..
haix..really hate having so many tuition sessions..x((
but this year is their major year, i have the responsibility..haix..

gymed with hugang, my "best friend" on friday..
he's so-called my "best friend" aft tt tue he supported me
with clarisse for the real artiste singing audition..xDD
love them!xD..they made me love mosburger too..xP..randomism..
aft which, chionged to shengrui's place for tuition..
wanted to go for voices practice aft dnr..
on my way there, was caught in a freaking bad jam..
by the time i reached clementi, the night had fallen..
so i just made my way to leo's place and skipped voices for the 2nd time..
anw kend was telling me, they were doing
the most basic diaphragmatic breathing which i alrd have learnt in hark class..

saturday is today, by right ytd..
luckily today dint have any tuition in the morning..
hence could wake up later than usual..
but still slightly late for hark music class..
actually i was thinking about withdrawing frm hark music class..
cuz frankly i'm really struggling to build up good self-discipline
to juggle exercising, studies, friends, boyfriend, cca and tuitions well..
it's really not ez..cuz tuitions refer to 6 sessions per week..
therefore, i was thinking, if i could stop my harkmusic class..
i can forego a few students and focus more on catching up and
eventually following lectures and tutorials properly..
i'm really far behind for all subjects..
probably, the most impt factor to solve this is:
SELF DISCIPLINE!!!

aft harklesson, went leo's place to mug, for the first time of this sem..
aft which, went for the damn boring and hostile bbq of leo's jc class..
waa some person really damn irritating..
effing pissed just now..
but watever..zzz...
leo was also disappointing..
but he's gonna make up for my shattered heart tmr..
mwahahahhahaaa...zzz...

but sad to say, this unfriendly bbq is better than none..
my sec sch and jc ppl dun even bother abt the life and death of any others..
if there was some gathering, and i noe shit abt it,
means i'm really fucking outcasted la..
which dun really matter to me..hah..anymore..

nothing much to update about anymore..

i'm so tired..there's tuition tmr..
good nitex..

~baby, my love for you will never change,
no matter what happens..
anything and everything has proven this..~